January 13, 2003 + 1:48 pm
listening to: the clash - london calling.
currently reading: porno by irvine welsh.
mood: under the weather.

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i totally blew off work today. i just couldn't go in. business is soooooo slow. even though it helped last week cutting back my hours until 7, it just seems pointless to sit there all day to have *literally* 2 sales. plus when the alarm went off this morning i just wasn't feeling too hot. i haven't been feeling good at all lately; i don't know if it is stress messing my body up or something actually physical. it's like my stomach is all tied up in knots and i feel groggy and weak, like dehydrated, almost..... just totally not *right*. i'm sitting here right now still feeling pretty bad. almost like i could throw up at any minute, but i doubt that i will. so yeah, i just blew it off altogether. who cares anyway.

i remember a year or two ago i was waking up to LONDON CALLING in my cd/alarm clock...... my thing was "if i'm not in the shower by LOST IN THE SUPERMARKET, i'm late for work".

i got the sweetest lil email from iain today, that at least brightened my mood a bit. one of those cute lil dancin' smiley face emails sending smiles & kisses, etc. normally i would think that was kinda gay, like if it came from my mom or someone sending out a massive email list or whatever, but coming from him it had said effect: it really made me smile. even *cuter* was that he got it from his daughter, and then forwarded it to me. :)

why do i have such a thing for single dads??? is that weird???

- borntokill x

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