June 04, 2003 + 1:26 am
listening to: shane macgowan.
currently reading: oscar wilde - the picture of dorian grey.
cake or death? golly. neither tonight.

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i am going straight to hell.

so my store is right next to the local catholic parish. the resident priest there walks his dog by my store just about daily. with biz being so slow i am often sitting out on the front steps, so we chat every now and then. NICEST GUY in the world. oddly, i went to my friends' daughter's first holy communion a few months ago, and who was saying mass........ but my next door neighbor priest friend!! i was surprised. i think he was, too, to see me there. at church. in all black. with pink hair. get my drift?? but i didn't spontaneously combust after taking communion. hey, once a catholic always a catholic i suppose?!?!? so we formed a bond that day i guess. *even though* i have not been back to mass since. *shrugs* oh well. he's cool with it. he also takes it in stride that my store is chock full of COOP devils, pinup girls, and nunzilla.

so i am in blockbuster tonight, renting THE RECRUIT, which i tried to rent saturday...... but it was out. i figured i might have better luck on a tuesday. colin farrell is just............. drool. anyway. who comes up behind me but (drum roll) my priest friend. rick! we make idle small talk and he asks what i'm getting. i tell him THE RECRUIT, which he says is good! some surprises and twists in there! then he asks if i have a recommendation for him, what was the last movie i watched? well i look up, and we were standing at the S/T section, and it just so unfortunately happens that i watched SECRETARY - twice - this weekend. so i just blurted it out. immediately i realize what a ghastly mistake this is. i just told a priest to rent a somewhat graphic movie about an S & M relationship. christ, why not just tell the guy to rent 9 1/2 WEEKS. i immediately start stammering and try to cover it up saying, well, it's a *different* sort of film. but it won the 2002 sundance! i'm really reaching here now. (you know..... like honest. i'm not a big pervert. i didn't think it was hot; i only watched for pure artistic & creative filmmaking). sheesh. he's ready to rent it! i'm dying! as luck would have it, he doesn't have a dvd player and all the vhs are out. so then SIGNS is right above it, and i say, OH!! SIGNS!! that was GRRRREAT!! yes, by all means rent signs. that's a must see.

so now i am just going to be cringing and waiting, *knowing* that he is going to pick up SECRETARY next week, watch both maggie gyllenhaal AND james spader masturbating, and think of the fucking pervert who recommended it to him.

i'm so embarrassed.

- borntokill x

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