October 26, 2003 + 11:17 am


cake or death? death.

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ok well. my period is THIRTEEN FUCKING DAYS late. i had to break down and buy a home pregnancy test friday night; i was just losing my mind. even though the couple times i have had sex in the past two months have been completely *protected* i just couldn't get all the "what if's" and "what will i's" out of my mind. so needless to say the stupid thing is negative. i knew that; i just had to see it in black and white. or, more realistically, in white and pink. but the feeling of seeing only one lil pink line show up instead of two......... indescribable. heres me standing alone in my bathroom just crying and laughing at the same time, the word relief does not do the situation justice.

so what the fuck is going on???? with any luck maybe i have ovarian cancer and will die quickly, loaded up on oxycontin.

- borntokill x

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