February 26, 2003 + 9:16 pm
listening to: nick cave.
currently reading: kill kill faster faster - joel rose.
cake or death? death.

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sorry i haven't been writing. really, i am!! i haven't been doing anything at all for the past two weeks. i'm not even quite sure how i fill my days come to think of it........ what the hell have i done all week???? it's wednesday already - how did i get here???

anyway. went out saturday night. went to see clutch, you know, the show i have been waiting for since january. it breaks my heart to say it kinda sucked. i'm not sure why exactly. maybe it was the venue. it's not that the sound was *bad* per se, it just wasn't LOUD enough. i dunno. maybe it was the fact that i basically couldn't see neil, and his stage antics are the best part of the show. maybe it's the fact that their last 2 cds sucked so bad that their fan based has shifted in the last year or so. i have never been packed in with so many meatheads, sheer idiots, before in my life. or maybe it was the asshole next to me who was trying to pick me up and shouted in my ear though probably 2 or 3 songs. mike from orlando. or was it tony? he *looked* like a tony. super cheezy with that gay little mustache that all eye-talian guys seem to have. WHY was he at a clutch show? did he even know who clutch is?!? one of these guys who chats you up and tells you you're hot and ask you out (not just once but two or three times...) and then when they finally realize you truly aren't interested they're all like --- bitch. fuck you then.

no wonder i never leave my house anymore.........

- borntokill x

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